According to the Merriam-Webster Online Dictionary, the word dedicate can be used as either an adjective or a transitive verb. The definition of the word seems to vary somewhat, depending on its usage.
For example, when used as an adjective, the word dedicate is defined as;
1 : being devoted to a cause, ideal, or purpose : ZEALOUS <a dedicated scholar>
2 : given over to a particular purpose <a dedicated Web server>
Yet when the word dedicate is used as a transitive verb, it is defined as;
1 : to devote to the worship of a divine being; specifically : to set apart (a church) to sacred uses with solemn rites
2 a : to set apart to a definite use <money dedicated to their vacation fund> b : to commit to a goal or way of life dedicate his life to public service>
3 : to inscribe or address by way of compliment <dedicate a book to a friend>
4 : to open to public use
synonym see DEVOTE
When it comes to my life, I cannot recall ever being dedicated to absolutely anything, regardless of which definition is applied. I have come close a time or two, but I have never ever really been fully or truly DEDICATED to any thing or any aspect of my life – other than taking in my next breath of air and in getting something to eat and drink from time to time.
The closest I ever came to being truly dedicated to anything in my life, was…. Hmmm… oh yeah… it was when I…. no… not that… OK! So I have never been dedicated to anything, at all, my entire life. Zip. Zero. Zilch.
There have been a number of things that I have pursued with great desire and interest — but there has never been one thing in my entire life that I have ever been dedicated to. And I’m willing to bet that I’m not the only person in the world who has never, ever, been truly dedicated to even one thing for his (or her) entire life. The closest I’ve ever come, is to try and ensure that each day I get whatever it is I think I want that day – but usually, I don’t even know what that is. It’s more of a moment-to-moment thing for me. One moment I think I want this, but before I even begin to consider what it might take to get that, I decide that I want something else, instead. So I guess, in a sense, one could say that I have been dedicated to pleasing my flesh – but that is about as close as it comes for me.
Can you relate to that? Does that sound something like (or a lot like) you?
When I woke up this morning and had my first coherent thought today (what I call my “God Thought” – that’s when he tells me what I need to think about and work on that day), the word “dedicated” came to mind. And as I thought about that word and meditated on its meaning, it was only a matter of moments before I realized why God had brought that thought –that word– to my mind. I have never been dedicated to anything in my life.
Not only have I never been dedicated to anything in my life, I have never even been dedicated to my life. I have simply floated through life like a piece of driftwood down a stream. I have gone with the flow most of my life, simply seeking to get by as best I can, seeking pleasure where I can and avoiding as much trouble as I can, nothing more, nothing less. What a waste!
It took me until age 46 for me to fully realize that the life I had been living for the past thirty years was devoid of purpose and a complete waste of time, because I had been using and abusing people, and chemical substances; in an effort to feel good about myself. In all truth, I was only trashing my life and dragging as many people as I could down with me. I was pathetic in every sense of the word.
Every aspect of my being – physical, mental, social, and spiritual – was sick and dying from abuse and neglect, and I was helpless to do anything about it. I was a prisoner of my own, apathetic lifestyle, as I was guilty of not caring about anyone but me — and barely even caring about that. I was facing a sentence of death by drinking my own poison. And so I died.